Lost Soul

What has my world become? Darkness has taken over me and Satan is getting closer! I feel hell is right around the corner, so now what do I do? I am seeking GOD but I don't seem to find him anywhere; or am I looking hard enough? I cry out for help, but no one seems to hear my cries. I reach out my hand and hope that some one takes it; but they don't! I have lost myself; I am distant. I don't know what is coming but I know what I have done. I had a plan for myself; but the Lord has another plan. All I want to know is what should I be doing? How can I change my sinning ways? I feel ashamed! I am unhappy and looking for a way out. So, what is it that I should do? someone help me for I am a lost soul.....

Psalms 23:4-5NIV

The lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

Guidance

I have a picture in my head of a man standing next to me. He holds out his hand to help me up but I refuse his help just the same. I ask myself why should I let this man I do not know help me? What if this is some kind of trick and maybe he wants to hurt me?

I do not let this man help me up and I refuse his help just the same, and now I feel unsure of myself and some what ashamed.

We have all heard of the story of the unattractive elderly woman who came baring gifts, and when the man refused them she turned into a beautiful princess. The man felt so stupid and ashamed that he begged and pleaded with her not to damn him for he did not know who she was and yet the beautiful princess looked at him with disgust. She tells the handsome gentlemen that it shouldn't of mattered what she looked like that he should of excepted her just the same but since he did not she would reveal his true colors as a beast like she knew that he was!

So, I asked myself again why didn't I let this man help me up? Why did I refuse his help just the same? I answered myself in the most unusual way. I did not have an answer to the questions that I have asked, I had no reason at all except one. My pride is what had gotten to me and for that this is what I have become. A beast of my own kind not physically, but in a sense of the word. My heart has become cold to the world that surrounds me and body is almost like ice! What makes me so different then the people all around me? What makes me any better then the next sinner?

MY ANSWER: NOTHING!!!!!!!!!

I am no better then anyone else. I am nobody but a lost soul. So I told the man who tried to help me why I have been so cold. I asked him for forgiveness and told him I would repent. He looked at me and said dear child that is all I have ever wanted for you to do. I looked at the man again and saw a man dressed in white with a yellow glow. I realized right then and there that man that I have refused is my one and only SAVIOR! JESUS CHRIST!

I got down on one knee and bowed to him and said my lord what is it that you want me to do? He looked at me again and again and said just love me for who I am. I am here to help you, not hurt you in anyway! Just take my hand and walk with me and I will guide you the right way.

I cried and cried like I have never cried before. He took his hand and wiped my tears and said this, you will do no more! You will have no more pain just joy in your life. I looked at him and with a calm voice I said thank you JESUS you have saved me from myself.

Road ahead

There is this long and lonely road that I am traveling on. It seems to lead to nowhere good. I have been on this same road for many years and can't seem to stop. There where many times I could of turned right or left but I chose to continue on my journey forward. I look ahead to see what is coming my way and all I see is sin, destruction, and death.When will I learn that this is not the way for me? I close my eyes and drift away and hope that I will sleep. Maybe if I were sleeping I wouldn't feel this much pain. The problem is, if I continue to go straight I will eventually have to make a choice! When that big fork in the road comes and says only left or right. Then what will I chose? Will I chose to go right or left? If I continue to go straight there is nothing there but a cliff! Should I end it now and go over the cliff? Or should I chose to see another day? Whatever it is that I chose, I know my pain won't go away.

A life without you

A life without you would be so cold. Nobody would know where to go.

I look around but you are know where to be found.

I cry out loud and nobody makes a sound.

I whisper softly and hope you hear my prayer.

I turned around and stopped to stare,I almost thought I saw you there.

When I looked again you were gone and here I am singing the same old song.

I screamed out loud one more time, GOD please come into my life!

I need you now like I always have, I just didn't know how to begin.

GOD I ask you this again please free me from all my sin.

Please give me eternal life, please don't let me parish into the light.

God, please be with me through the good and the bad.

God, please pray for all who are sad.

Please help us to understand, how to live under your command.

A life without you would be so cold, that even I don't know where to go.